Jesus calms the storm...

It has now been two weeks since my best friend left me to go live in a better place with our Heavenly Father. Over the past 2 years, as we walked the cancer journey, I would often try and imagine what my life would be like without Greg in it. In my thoughts, I would do things on my own and think, I am preparing myself for a life without Greg. In reality, all I did was think of him gone from a scenario. I never really felt what it would be like. Never knew what it was like to want to talk to him and him not be here, or want a hug from him and he isn't there to give it. I fooled myself when thinking I was prepared in any way. Truth is, no one can ever prepare themselves for such a tremendous hole in their life. 

That said, many of you have sent our family sweet cards of encouragement or things to brighten our days. We have been blessed in so many ways and I know if Greg were here to see it, he would be humbled to tears by the love that has been poured out to our family. As am I. It has sometimes been overwhelming to read the impact Greg had on different lives and know I was fortunate enough to spend the last 23 years married to him. 

One of Greg's dreams was to be a weatherman. This makes me laugh every time I think about it. Especially when I think of how it snowed so beautifully the day of his funeral. Greg knows how much I love snow! He loved it when a big storm was coming b/c he wanted to get out in the middle of it and watch God's power all around him. I, on the other hand, was ready to get under the covers and hide. He always wanted to be a storm chaser and see an actual tornado touch down. He just thought it was amazing that God had that much power. Just like in the story of Jesus calming the storm, the people in the boat were amazed that this man had the power to control the wind and waves. (Mark 4:35-41) 

The past two weeks have been hard, but there have been blessings scattered throughout each day. Little bits of God's goodness to show me we are not alone and He will watch over us and carry us even though at times it seems like a true tornado is swirling all around us.  It seems like tornados come out of nowhere and just surprise people. That is what I am finding out about grief. I will be going along doing fine and all of a sudden it will hit me and I will fall apart. 

The kids have seemed to handle it a bit better than me. Please continue praying for all of us as we try and make fun memories this Christmas without our "weatherman." 

Romans 8:18 ESV

18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. 

The past few weeks in pictures:

Enjoying Cracker Barrel after the kids got home from school for the funeral. 

Manicures

Making the most of a tough situation.

Trying to find the perfect funeral suit. 

Cracker Barrel is... comfort. 

Greg's college buddies.

Dinner at Cracker Barrel after the funeral. 

Annie spending time with her Daddy. 

I have been trying to keep busy by encouraging others. I was able to translate 

all day for a toy drive. 

The babies are all home to enjoy Christmas together! 

Thanks for praying for us all! Missy and kids